New Camera!

yay! I got my camera le!

Interview

Yesterday was Semi-conductor Fundamentals paper and my nus nursing interview.

The paper was alright I guess, knew how to do some questions, of course most of it was still anyhow do.
Time wasn't really enough though, there were a lot of different parts to a question and I spent a lot of time on the first two questions.
Actually wanted to leave early but since already not enough time to finish so I didn't.
In the end had to rush to NUS, was afraid that I will be late.


Finished the paper and rush to meet dear at the bus stop, he waited for me throughout my paper! So sweet!
Was so lucky to be able to get a cab after 5 minutes.
Reach in less than half an hour. Stopped in front of the Cultural Centre.
There was a lot of people dressed in chinese costumes in and in front of the cultural centre.
Reminded me about the time when I went for SYF in primary school.
I think it was the same place, look very much alike.
Was the same too, Chinese Dance.


Anyway, went opposite to the building I was supposed to have my interview at.
Went up the lift, asked the receptionist, she asked me which team I'm in.
Told her I was in Team B she said I was in Team C, she looked at my letter which says Team B as well. She said it changed. -.-
Did some sort of a questionnaire, asked lots of questions about your present life, why you chose nursing and all that kind of stuff.
Met 2 guys and 1 girl, they were all so friendly, sort of intimidated by them, I'm too shy? Hmm.
Anyway, waited around 45 minutes, went into room.
There were 3 interviewers, a caucasian guy and 2 aunties.

The Caucasian was sort of quiet, most of the questions was asked by the two aunties.
When the Caucasian spoke up, didn't understand his question, he got quite a heavy accent.
They kept asking me why I want to change course because nursing is a rather big change from engineering.
Well, I want to explore more possibilities in the biomedical area, maybe because I had enough of engineering already.
They asked about what I did in Polytechnic, it was like they thought I change twice already, I said I used to do EEE in SP, and then EEE in NTU, then now I want to do Nursing in NUS.
One of the auntie said, "You already change twice!? What makes you want to do Nursing then? Wouldn't you want to change if you don't like it again?"
*roll eyes* Its like they don't understand what is the difference between polytechnic and university. My goodness.
I literally had to explained the difference of what I did in Polytechnic was different from University and exactly what I mean when I did Biomedical Computing in Polytechnic.
Shouldn't they understand what are electives?
And obviously I already did research and lots of thinking before I go for the interview right?
If I can get out of engineering, I believe I can take whatever that comes my way by then.
So I guess I didn't fare very well for the interview. So exasperated.
Oh well, let nature takes it course bah. (:
If I can't get in, private won't be a bad choice also?

Jiayou Jiayou!

Exam Exam Exam

Seems like I'm always updating during exams.
Oh well, vent my frustrations.

Finished my first paper. Signals and Systems.
Did a whole lot of crap. Ha!
Anyway, got shortlisted for interview for nursing at NUS.
Wish me luck for that. Plan to really withdraw from NTU.
If interview fails, most likely go to private.
I know exactly what field I want to pursue.
So lets just fulfill my dream~

New Layout

Like the new layout?

Anyway, one last paper to go before holiday starts.
Last paper will be Foundation Physics.
Previous paper was Digital Electronics on Tuesday and Data Structures and Algorithm on Thursday.
Digital Electronics was a goner.
Not enough time so I only finish approximately half of it.
Data Structures and Algorithm was better thoough.
Kind of like the best I did in this Exam.
What is over is over already.
Now must focus on my last paper.

Onalee messaged me just now.
Ask me to go to work tomorrow.
Told her cannot because I need to study for the last paper.
Every second is precious. That what I have learnt this semester in university.
Well, I will be going back to work starting Tuesday after my last paper on Monday.
So hardworking! Ha.
Dou say lucky I'm going back to work.
Because Rasul quit already. His last day was wednesday I think.
Oh well. I wish Lao ban is still in T2.
I can't imagine working with Daniel.
I guess I have to face him sooner or later.

I want to go shopping after exams!
Seriously need some new jeans.
Dou! You must pei me ok?

I miss my dear.
Anyway, his POP will be on the 9th of December!
Hope his break will be 2 weeks instead of 5 days like ttw said.
Don't know whether I'll be going to his POP or not.
Might not be able to get away from BK anyway.

Anyway. Hope you guys like the new layout.
Tell me what to improve.
This might be a temporary one. :)
Ciaoz.

Hmm.

Yes, I will jiayou.
Thanks everyone, heart all of you :)

The only thing I can do right now is to jiayou.

Studying had always been an enjoyable experience till now.
The days we used to spend late nights studying for mid years, final years, prelims, O levels, Mid semester tests, Semester exams.
Not to mention the entire days that we used sitting in front of the computers doing F&N projects, Programming projects, FYP, and stuff.
It isn't the same anymore.

Seriously, I miss those days.
It was never like this, where you get sit down, getting so pissed off just by thinking, why can't I complete such a simple question without referring to the notes or people's answer?
Its so damn frustrating sometimes. The feeling of helplessness is so demoralising.
Especially when you feel like a nervous wreck before entering the examination hall.
When you sit down, its even worst.
You contemplate the paper and find out, yeah I forgot everything I've learnt.
Its often the case now.
I sit down and wonder, what the hell should I write on this paper when apparently, I don't know how to attempt the questions.
Well well. So in the end, all my answers are crap. Might as well hand in a blank script.

I'll just go in, sit down, write some crap, and wonder how the hell the rest of the people in the hall does it.
I feel stupid. Yes, it does have that impact on you.

Oh well.
Nothing I can control about it.
Time waits for no man. I am busy catching up with it.
There isn't enough time to study now, and I can only try my best.

Yes, I will jiayou.

[ Let's just hope for the best.. ]

it isn't as easy as it seems

Yes.
I'm back blogging.
Happy? lols
Well..
Many things happened in this half a year since I've stopped blogging.

Oh well.
Basically, I'm now struggling with my studies.
Sometimes, really feel like giving up.
But when I think about it, what can I do if I give up?
Go into a private university? Hmm.
Cost is definitely a problem, and besides, my dream was to get into NTU and get a degree right?

EEE was not my first choice. I know that I have absolutely no interest, not to say talent, in this field.
Bioengineering was not my aim either.
But since I can't get into a pure science field I got to grab the closest alternative right?
Yeah. I really hoped to get into Bioengine and I didn't.
I thought, why not try EEE out? Besides, in the final year, I still have a choice of choosing Medical field as my elective.
Yes. And now I can't even get past the first semester.
Oh wow.

Well, it seems like I'm not the only one having problems.
Seems like my friends around me have problems coping with the pace of university life.
One of them even dropped out.
That had sort of a big impact on me.
I feel like giving up too.
I keep thinking I can always get into a private uni, or work while appealing.
Seems like I'm running away from the problem. Ha.
It never occured to me university life will be this tough.
But I do want to get a degree.
I don't know what to do right now.
I know I won't do well this semester and I'm uncertain about the future semesters as well.
So, how? Damn.

This will be a challenge in life that I've to get through.
I have no idea what the future holds for me.
And i also have no idea what is the next step that I should take.
Maybe I shall think about after the exams.
No point thinking about it now, making me so depressed and feeling so stupid.

Oh well, just a random ranting post about my depressing life right now. Ciaoz then.

[ It isn't as easy as it seems. ]

2 down 3 to go

finished my maths paper..
haiz.. much better than CA..
at least i know how to do some problems..
but qns that i expected to come out didnt come out..
so sort of did not very well..
so wonder if i will pass or not.. hahax..

but oh well.. its over..
next is Digital Electronics, Data Structures and Algorithm and another dying paper Foundation Physic..
haiz.. hope i can quickly finish all these papers..
so stressed ahhhhh..
-.- oh well..